Monthly Archives: September 2016

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Time Out

Dear Blossom Another long day which this time involved travelling from one end of London on the tube to the other. It was a good meeting. And a long commute. That’s of course in addition to the normal day to day stuff (like having to deal with a broken washing machine and arrange a visit from the engineers; having unsolicited callers ring the door bell, sending Michael into a frenzy and taking delivery of the online shopping only to discover that about a third of the items have to go back. Yeah, normal stuff like that.) […]

By | September 27th, 2016|Uncategorised|0 Comments

Butterflies of excitement and nerves

Dear Blossom In a couple of days, I’ll be running my Stop Being Lost – Rediscover Your Path workshop. And I’m trying to objectively look at what these increasing butterflies in my stomach are saying: are they squealing in excitement? Or are they whimpering with nervousness? I believe it’s both: excitement about all the fabulous things that would happen and nervousness about all the possible things that could go wrong. What I pay more attention to from now on will determine whether we have a great and successful event on Wednesday, or a pathetic and disastrous one. Writing to Blossom […]

By | September 26th, 2016|Uncategorised|2 Comments

I just wanna scream!

Dear Blossom I’ve just closed a 2 paged document that I’ve been working on for the past couple of hours or so – without saving it. I just wanna scream! Good thing I’d printed it off for proofreading before going on the next step with it, so at least I don’t have to do all the thinking from scratch. All I need do is type it all up again. Still…. Re-typing it – though I will have to do that – isn’t great fun. Writing to you is, so I’ve given myself a break to catch my breath, rewind, unwind and see what I can share with you about this. Writing to Blossom I am quite pleased with my reaction. All I did was say ‘arrgghhh’ or some sound like that rather loudly. And had my hands rolled into fists of their own accord. When, after a few minutes I still had an urge to scream some more, I thought, why not scream it all out here? What I didn’t do was call myself names. […]

By | September 25th, 2016|Uncategorised|0 Comments

Broken Sat Nav …Internal Light

Dear Blossom It was lovely for an open day visit to the University of Sussex today – dry, warm with a light breeze, bright and just pleasant. I liked the feel of the place, the staff and students we came across; my son was happy with what he heard at the lectures and presentations; and what he saw on the tours. The cafeteria could have been clearer and less chaotic but that is a minor matter. […]

By | September 24th, 2016|Uncategorised|0 Comments

Changing Seasons – Empty Nests 1

Dear Blossom It's a very short one to you today. Writing to Blossom A very busy week has ended with a very long day today: I went along with my eldest as she returned to University in West Malvern, Worcestershire. It was a long drive from London. For the second time in as [...]

By | September 23rd, 2016|Uncategorised|0 Comments

The Power of Associations

Dear Blossom Today, it’s all about my best friend: the totally accepting, unconditionally loving and ever-ready-to-play Michael. I’ve got so much to say about Michael, it’s difficult to know where to start. What about the way he looks at me so intensely when I’m eating? I’m pretty sure he prays for my food to drop for very often his prayers get answered and he gets the piece before it hits the floor! Writing to Blossom […]

By | September 23rd, 2016|Uncategorised|2 Comments

How Do You Handle that Voice in Your Head?

Dear Blossom What do you do when that sneering little voice in your head tries to drown you with moans and groans and questions to which you have no answers? Sometimes it’s laughing, sometimes it’s whining, all the time it’s trying to undermine your best intentions and to stop you in your tracks towards somewhere positive that your really want to go. I guess there are many different ways of dealing with it. But they all broadly come under: resistance and acceptance. . […]

By | September 22nd, 2016|Uncategorised|Comments Off on How Do You Handle that Voice in Your Head?

Dissolving the Chokehold of Overwhelm

Dear Blossom I was very nearly going to skip writing you today simply because of a chokehold of overwhelm. Writing to Blossom I woke up too early today – which isn’t entirely new – and was too tired to go back to sleep. I wasn’t in the mood to play WordsWithFriends (my usual go-to activity when insomnia strikes). After tossing and turning for a bit I thought why not get up and tackle some tasks…and make good use of my wakefulness. And that’s when it hit: that massive sense of overwhelm, that feeling of having so much to do with so little time and energy with which to to do them. . . […]

By | September 20th, 2016|Uncategorised|0 Comments

To Plan or Not to Plan?

Dear Blossom So. What do you think? To plan or not to plan? What’s the point planning if life would only get in the way and toss your well laid plans in disarray? Ok, let me back up a moment here: I had plans for this summer. Well-thought-out plans…not a hundred per cent in ink, mind you, some were still very much in pencil. But, I had plans: these included my mum visiting the UK to spend some good quality time with me and my kids over here. I had dreams also, of things we could do, places we could go, even skills we could share – (well, more of me having another go at learning to knit which I couldn’t quite manage as a child. I thought that as I was now older, wiser and more patient I could better manage my frustrations when I dropped the stitches!). Writing to Blossom […]

By | September 19th, 2016|Uncategorised|Comments Off on To Plan or Not to Plan?

I’m writing to you today because…

Dear Blossom I’m writing to you today because I’ve been wanting to write for so long, I’ve even started a few times… Lately, it’s been so very difficult … it feels like I’m just writing in a vacuum. I start but don’t finish. I have ideas for blogs and stories and only follow up on a fraction of them, and complete only even tinier bits of those… Fragments of unfinished poems litter my notepads, and so much more stuff float around in my head… […]

By | September 18th, 2016|Uncategorised|10 Comments